Perhaps by overcoming this aversion, or fear, of people... and becoming part of something bigger, getting strength from others, not being lonely... all that... would be helpful to you.
You can get sober without AA. But if you are truly alcoholic, you can't get sober without getting outside your comfort zone, and you have to change nearly everything (for the better)... why do it alone, if you don't have to?
Welcome to SR!!