Originally Posted by
Hevyn 
I missed my escape when times were rough, but I had to keep reminding myself getting numb doesn't really help or resolve anything. We're just masking our feelings.
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Depression is not new to me. But this part of your post stuck out for me. I am not using those substances and processes that I used in the past to numb me when I felt overwhelmed, but depression is a numbing. So I am not consciously using, but it's as if my subconscious is finding a way to tune out.
I am pushing through the motions though. Facing life's challenges and doing what must be done, even if I am like a dead woman walking.