I think posting here is exactly where you need to be NC - I'd advise posting more not less.
When I came here in 07 I made a commitment to post daily - not saying you need to do that, that's just what I did.
For various reasons, I thought about not posting here after a while too - I realise now that that was me looking for a way out of the commitment I'd made because it was working for me coming here - but it was also challenging and uncomfortable at times...and a little scary.
I really hope you change your mind
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