It gets better, i promise. I had 7 months of sobriety then went back out for a few months and it was terrible! Now i have just 3 months. If you are in AA then i suggest getting a sponsor and working the 12 steps. Once you work the 12 steps, and if you do them fully and honestly, the book tells us that we will be restored to "sanity" meaning we can decifer the truth from the false. Then if we practice these steps everyday to the best of our ability there is no room for any mental obsession and the thought of the drink passes. This is a better way of life and a great design for living.
greatful to be sober today and in recovery!! 1 day a time my friend!!!!