Hi Panrose, I am so sorry for what happened to you. As far as guilt goes, try and let go of it. The past is gone forever and you are working on your sobriety. Try and focus on the positive aspects of quitting and not be so hard on yourself. It's commendable that after a bing, you posted looking for support. I would have been lying in bed for 3 days. Pat yourself on the back for that
You are not alone, we have all felt guilt and shame for our drinking. Redemption is possible and love is all around you.