I'm so sorry you have had to go through what you have. I'm sorry too, that you are not feeling well today. 82 days ago people told me I'd never have to feel this way again. You don't have to either. If I can do this, you can too! It is so worth it and the people on this site are so warm and supportive. Please keep reading and posting. We are here for you and you do not have to do this alone!