I've just spent all my life thinking, "why does he think/do that? Why do I see things so differently?" And really all my life thinking I was so wrong and strange and I just couldn't seem to fit into my alcoholic family.
I honestly thought for so many years that I was the crazy and wrong one. Sometimes I thought that I even imagined the things that happened when he was really drunk, because everyone else would act like nothing ever happened. It just made me doubt my reality.
It's amazing to me that I spent so much time and effort trying to "get" him, trying to think like the alcoholic. What a wasted effort.
And I read things here and I realize, I'm not the only one, other ACOA's grow up wondering these things too.