Originally Posted by
Dee74 
if 20 years taught me anything it's that drinking only serves to make things more unpleasant NC.
You've got to be in it to win it NC...it really boils down to that I think.
for much of this week, i've listened to testimony and stared down the most compelling examples imaginable of the misery and destruction that my drinking has caused. i know that drinking makes nothing better, i know what it's cost, and i hate myself for doing it. sometimes tho, it is the only thing that makes sense to me.
you are correct, i am not in it to win it tonite. i am nearly a fifth in and i imagine the weekend will also be a lost cause. but i will return to aa soon. soon as i can muster the motivation and a few sober hours.