if 20 years taught me anything it's that drinking only serves to make things more unpleasant NC.
little hope that anything will work at this point
You've got to be in it to win it NC...it really boils down to that I think.
Cliche or not...nothing changes if nothing changes.
I really want to see you do this.
Do follow up with the sponsor - what have you got to lose but some misery?
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