Hi and Welcome!
I'm really glad that you found us and that you recognize that alcohol is causing you problems in your life.
Yes, the Day 1 is really hard to get through and it's scary to imagine life without alcohol, but you can do it. Many of us have recovered and you can too.
As far as how to spend your time and what to do, that's a common problem too, so we have a list of ideas:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ething-do.html