LifeRecovery - Wow! it's like we're dealing with the same things. I also have got to come to grips with the fact that I might not have children. That it's something I may have given up without knowing I had. I also am not near ready to date again. Even if "I still have time," I can't keep that thought in the back of my head, like "Am I ready now? Am I ready now? Because the clock is ticking!"
And that's why I can feel remorseful, and angry, and doubting myself about my decisions - Marriage is supposed to be for life, right?
And now, here I am, 7 mos. out. All my self-righteousness hung out to dry. I am SUCH a mess now, it's not even funny. Like I said, anyone looking in on me now would swear I was the substance abuser. I can't get my work done, I'm avoiding EVERYTHING. It's ridiculous.