My experience is that all the negative parts of my character are highly amplified when I was severly drunk at the blackout point. I am a fairly even tempered person normally, blackout drunk I am short temered and highly agressive. Sober I would usually stay away from any hard drugs. When blackout drunk, I would seek whatever was around. Sober I would always try and keep negative comments about strangers to myself. Blackout drunk I would blut out whatever crazy thought was on my mind.