Instead of looking at it as something I've been denied or want to do but can't, I try to remember all the bad repurcussions and ask myself why I would WANT to drink. And to focus on all the positive things that are happening because I'm not drinking. I DO need to face myself sober and address my issues or I will always stay stuck in this same rut.
That's the sh!t, right there, girlfriend.
You know what I see? Your discipline as a runner helping you stick to your goals.