How life has changed....
Woke up this morning and said my prayers, then started thinking of how my life has changed since I stopped worshipping a bottle of wine everynight. My life has improved in every way....there is not one aspect of my life that has not been affected. I was never in jail because of alchohol, or rehab, never had a DUI, no lost jobs or relationships.
I just lived a life of quiet despair, always telling myself that I wasn't good enough, believing that I was different than everyone else....that I wasn't acceptable, smart, pretty enough etc.....I drank every night to shut off the noise in my head that was torturing me on a daily basis. Now that I've stopped drinking those thoughts have disappeared and I can't help but wonder..... was I drinking to block out those thoughts, or were those thoughts occcurring because I was drinking? I've been doing it so long I don't know.....but I am so grateful to be free.