Feeling defeated
This has been bugging me and I have to get it out, lately Ive been feeling defeated , sort of like ive given in to the pull the drugs have over my son. Not sure if its a good or bad feeling but its there, he is currently sober about 5 days from the last time he relapsed, and this is the scary part i want to share, at first with the drugs use he said he was just experimenting, when it continued he said he knew what he was doing and he would never allow himself to get addicted to anything, he had it all figured out, and so here we are today with him addicted to roxies , when it had finally all come out and he has admitted to the problem it does not solve one thing because here is where the real battle begins and from what i see he is far from grasping what he has gotten himself into, maybe i shouldnt dwell on the future , all the what ifs drive me crazy , maybe ill just start to live one day at a time ....