Why self destructive?
Don't know why I am self destructive, why can't I want to stop drinking beer, eat healthy and exercise? I have a good life, good husband, nice home, pretty good job, love my dogs and horses. Not sure I'm alcoholic, I don't have shakes or blackouts, memory kind of fuzy sometimes. I like to drink beer, especially bll. I drink hard liquor sometimes when I'm trying to cut back on beer, but not bourbons or dark whiskeys, don't like them. Beer doesn't make me feel bad the next day. So why do I no want others to know how much I drink? Why do I try to hide all the bottles? Why am I staying home to drink instead of trail riding with friends? I am not going to drink tonight. I can make myself not drink on week nights, but always start again on Friday. I drank almost two cases last weekend.