Thank you guys for taking the time and putting such emotion and feelings into your responses...Its heartwarming to know that people out there really can relate, and If they cant, then maybe by reading someone else experience can help them...Im looking at my fall as a blessing..a reality check...a reminder of what could have been ,if I didnt reconize, and jump back into sobriety..It was a REAL look at the past..that could have been my future if not corrected immediately...I consider myself extremely fortunate to have been able to do this...without deadly consequences...I thank my blessings, and appreciate my sobriety...then and now