Thank you for reminding me or proving to me that my alcoholism is in fact a sickness that I will never be immuned to.
I thought I was just being weak and hadn't hit rock bottom yet. I stop drinking for a few days then pick up again.
If you could pick up after so many years sober and end up drinking like I do on a daily basis, then It makes me realize I can never be a "normal" drinker. I heard it many times but I just didn't believe it. I know my "sickness" is trying to control me.
Today is day 1 for me again and I know the only thing I can control about my alcoholism is I can control NOT to pick up that first drink.
I wish you and all of us luck in this fight.