Hi JD.
Whew, I think that you are not as functioning as you give yourself credit for. What you said about people in the drug culture being more genuine than normal middle class types. That resonated with me. I used to have that can arrogant self centered ego driven view of the world and others... Been there, done that, got the addiction.
I am not gonna say a whole lot of specific things. I am going to beg you to let go of nearly everything you think you know about yourself, your addiction and the people and the world around you. Be open to things that may seem counter to everything you thought you knew.
Welcome to SR.