Help!
Hi all! I had been doing so great, but Sat night my wife and I got into a huge argument and basically she told me she hated me and called me all kinds of names, I just stayed quite till she was done and then I left and ended up drinking, I came back home and (not remembering) started screaming and yelling at her. We made up yesterday and she was sorry for pushing me so hard in my first week of recover and I apologized for drinking. The problem is I feel sick to my stomach about it, about that fact that I drank and tried so hard not to yell at her but I failed, I am just really down and don’t know if I will be able to get back up from this one. Should I just let it go and move on and if she leaves me not worry about it or do I try and stay with her when there is potential for another blow up and yet another reason for me to drink? I want to stop, I have to stop for me not her or our relationship.
P.S. After Sat night I have not picked up another drink but it’s twice as hard now.