we all get those low moments...and it's hard to put yourself out there. i've been on a lot of dates with a lot of jerks.
personally, dating someone you work with can be very stressful...count yourself lucky on this one.
you've been through a lot and need to feel good about yourself....for me it took a long time to get back to this state too. (BTWm, i'm the alcoholic, my XBF has his own issues with gambling).
you might want to try one of the freebie sites to start talking to men and do short meet and greets...get a friend to take a flattering pic. and maybe try it. (if you want the name of the one i use, PM me). take care of you!