Pretty bad, honestly. It sounds like you lose control once you pick up that first drink. And yet you continue to pick up that first drink—despite marital issues, despite your family history, and despite the fact you've gotten to the point where you're basically happier drunk than you are sober.
You sound exactly like me a few years back. Except I guess you're smarter, because you're here, asking these questions. If you are like me, I really hope you stop soon. Because as bad as it is, it gets worse. I'm really grateful to be free of that nightmare now. Glad you found us, Rich.
