Like you, I got sick of thinking about sobriety all the time. I didn't want it to be a big deal with my friends, and I hated talking about it in therapy so I minimized its importance. I quit coming here and reading posts. And then I just sort of forgot that it WAS important to keep it in the back of my mind all the time, and then I started drinking again. Now, I'm back here on day 2. I can't tell you when the living begins (and I'm kind of wondering that myself), but I just wanted to encourage you to keep at least some of your focus on sobriety so you don't lose it and have to start back at square one. Good luck.