Thanx guys it means so much to hear some genuine words of encouragement, ive tried finding someone locally who has a similar problem so as to be there for each other and support each other but without any luck. Admittedly i feel a little embarrassed to talk to family about it. They know i drink quite a bit but i know they would be shocked if they knew the full extent.
I shall continue to use this site as a source of information and inspiration.