So glad to hear you are sober after that ghastly business trip.
This gave me a sad smile because it was so like myself:
"if i waver even once, i will start treatment with an addiction counselor. if that doesn't work, i'll go to aa. if i still can't keep it together, i'll do inpatient."
This is a bit like saying:
"I have a serious illness. I am going to try operating on myself in the kitchen with a butter knife and paper towels for backup. If that doesn't work, I will seek help."
Why not just get some help now??? I am rooting for you today.