Have you considered rehab? I have been a heavy vodka drinker for at least 5 years and had started abusing alcohol a couple of before that. I tried to quit several times on my own so last year I went to rehab. I was sober for several months after that but my old nemesis creeped up on me again and sucked me back in. I went in for detox on Saturday, got out yesterday and started a Partial Hospitalization Program again yesterday. I am learning even more than my last time. More about the disease and more about myself. We have insurance but it's still going to be a significant cost. Still, we couldn't put a price tag on our relationship, our future and my life.
If you can go, go. It's worth it.