It's okay to grieve, but don't get stuck there. This guy obviously isn't going to stop drinking. It is important that you accept that as fact or the possibility of you falling for the lies will continue. He is what he is. You deserve better. Go ahead and cry or scream or whatever you need to do to get it out. Then, color your hair, start exercising (that will help you feel better...something about endorphins
), and do some special things for yourself. You may have to force yourself to do these things at first, but once you do, it'll get easier. I know how you feel, and your feeling are justified, just don't get stuck.
