Good for you, NC. I know exactly what you mean about feeling detached from everyone. I could be talking with someone about the weather, and I felt like I was playing a role. Acting one way, while feeling another. Protecting my secret. It was exhausting and demoralizing. I'm glad to hear you're open to getting some help. You can do it. You don't have to ever go through this again. Get as much rest as you can. Hang in there.