Don't think about if your an alcoholic or not. Its just a word and it does not sovoe anything. From what I red it seem to me you do have a drinking problem. Just by coming to SR you know this too. You have a few options. One is to quit drinking all together. Two is to stop drinking for a while to get your health and life straighten up. While can be a month or a year, whatever seem enough for you to get our life back on track. Or three, don't stop and do what you did before. Or four, control your drinking and stop getting drunk.
Good luck and welcome to SR.