Originally Posted by
JWC1982 
I'm sick of it and want to stop...
How have you all done it? I'm not sure why I'm insecure about this. It's like I won't accept the reality that after a certain point, I have zero control of myself when I'm drunk...
Originally Posted by
JWC1982 I have stopped, knowing I would eventually start back up. Frankly, I have never really quit.
The single most important thing is to stop vacillating on the issue. To drink again or not to drink again; that is the question. Once you decide on that, everything else will be much easier. If you keep going back and forth, though, you'll be in for some more of the same, possibly with ever increasing penalties.
What is your plan?