looking for some advice ............
I'm 29 and have been drinking for the last 12-13 years, long story short, it has been fun, but over the course of the decade it went from fun to a source of shame. While I don't use alcohol on a consistent basis, when I do it can get ugly like it did last night for instance. I'm sick of it and want to stop. It seems every party, social function, there's alcohol. The sight of me without a beer in my hand will come as a surprise to everyone.
How have you all done it? I'm not sure why I'm insecure about this. It's like I won't accept the reality that after a certain point, I have zero control of myself when I'm drunk. I can be the happy jokerster everyone wants to knock a few back with or I go to weird, dark place and am not myself at all.
I honestly believe that people will be extremely supportive of me stopping since I've had some issues, both legally and personally. Any advice would be appreciated.
Thank you all.