Originally Posted by
BobbyJ 
Wondered to myself, Why am I not a compassionate person to this person?
Because you are not there yet, there's been way too much water over the dam to simply shrug it off today. That would be like expecting the grieving process to be complete simply because the funeral of a loved one was over.
It just doesn't work that way, as much as we like to think that when we work our program all things are possible... we're still here in the real world, with feelings, successes and failures, good days and bad. Spirituality is not in accepting it when we find ourselves on the ground, it's in the willingness to pick ourselves up and move on towards an uncertain future.
Good luck Bobby, it seems to me that you are exactly where you should be. You need to excercise a little self-compassion at times too.