Thank you for the kind words guys!
Beebeezy, it took me a very long time to figure that one out. A really kind woman helped me figure that out and she recommended a book called "Healing the Shame That Binds You".
I basically had to remove all the toxic people and energy from my life and then I was able to take proper inventory of my current situation and how my past kept repeating itself in a negative way. None of it was easy, a lot was truly painful to confront actually, but I made it through that.
I feel like Nandm's sig couldn't be more true "Depression isn't a sign of weakness. Its a sign of being strong for too long."
For me, I've found it necessary to remove negative clutter in whatever way possible!