Thank you. I just had a weak moment. I wish I could get to al-anon or something here, but it simply is not available. so you're all i've got right now. i did get rid of his number but i have it memorized so that's really annoying. i have been reading
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ml#post3016842 and it's been really helpful in reminding me of some of the times i have been through.