Originally Posted by
married10 
have you felt that you just can't bring yourself to forget and move past it.
Yes. That's why I left. Have you heard the "sober horse thief" line? (i.e. "What do you get when you sober up a horse thief? A sober horse thief"). Even IF my XAH stopped drinking, smoking and snorting cocaine, he would not be someone I would want to spend the rest of my life with. He was too broken, too abusive and too toxic.
You know, it's OK to give yourself permission to be done. You have a right to it and people have divorced for much less (think of all those Hollywood stars...).
Yes, it will be hard on you and the kids, but you can at least begin to rebuild a sane life and SHOW them, but your actions, that their mother will not stand by and be taken advantage of anymore. Kids watch and learn from actions.
*hugs* to you.