OH WTBH... I wish I could reach out and give you a hug right now. Those biting words... suck. They cut like a knife straight into my soul when I hear them. As I have grown in Al-anon, I *KNOW* to not take it personally. I know to detach and not react... and all of that other great Al-anon stuff.... but there is still a part of me that gets hurt. I hurt that a person I love is saying those awful things. I *know* they aren't true words... but I allow them to sway my judgement. Allow them to make me second-guess myself.
The only remedy I have found to that kind of crap is to lean heavily on my Al-anon friends and sponsor. Addiction is ugly and mean - my sponsor reminds me I am a good, loving person... and perfect just the way I am.
Keeping walking girl... there is light where you are headed.
-Shannon