Originally Posted by
CagedBird 
There's also this feeling I've noticed, as I see what I should do more and more clearly, and everyone around me is reinforcing that... I feel... resistant. Like the more I know that I should go, the more something in me just digs its heels in and says, no no no.
Is that normal?
In a word, yes. That fear is very normal. And the problem is if I listen to that voice of fear too much, it's good friend Denial is soon to join in. Between the two of them, they do a knock down job of keeping me stuck in a toxic relationship.
The way i combat them is to stay in reality. Journal... Write down the facts. Go to al-anon. Learn about alcoholism. Focus on taking care of myself. Love myself.
Do all those things and life will get better. Hang out with fear and denial and nothing changes (I know, I spent the last 5 yrs with them... Jerks).
I think you're on the right just coming here!! Keep up the good work!!
Thanks for letting me share!
Shannon