I've been where you are, but I was there years ago. My brain, after around 2-3 months told me I could drink normally, so I had one or two. I did it for a few months, so I thought I could keep it up.
Slowly, I drank like that and at some point, well, it slowly got out of hand.
I wasn't convinced I needed to stop drinking, so I didn't.
Ten
+ years later, here I am, wishing I had stayed stopped way back when. Today I am proud of my 105 days.
No advice for you. I just wish I could turn back time.