Pinkladey,
Yes they do make us feel good, but it doesn't last and then we need more. And then we need more. And then we need still more. Those little pills that were designed to alleviate physical pain can cause so much psychic pain . You said you would do anything to get them. HAve you thought about the consequences? Loosing a job, ( I did ), loosing a family, loosing freedom, ( fortunately I did not , but I could have had charges been pressed) and loosing your life. Just this past week, 5 people in the area I live, ( southwest FLorida) DIED from overdosing on a combination of opiates, ( that is what the pills you love so much are ) and cocaine. The youngest was 17 the oldest 33.
Please think about what you are risking. We are here. Find help, ask for help, you don't have to hit rock bottom like many of us have. :dead: