I agree with above.
I also believe that your ANGER is really at yourself. Angry that you kept EXPECTING 'because of ALL you did for her' to change and WANT YOU AND BE WITH YOU. I believe your ANGER is at yourself as you are now finally having an "AHA MOMENT" and 'seeing' the truth.
So once again your immediate solution is what many of us have suggested SINCE you started posting .................................................. ....
NO CONTACT
NO taking her calls. NO taking any calls that might be from one of her addict buddies. NOT opening any emails she might send, and DELETING any Text Messages also.
Nothing changes if nothing changes.
And I have to say, despite your 'positive' posts of the last few weeks, NOTHING has changed.
Just as she has her drugs, SHE IS YOUR DRUG. Time to go COLD TURKEY.
J M H O
Love and hugs,