I don't see anything wimpy about posting, BD. Quite the opposite. That's my way of grabbing the addictive voice, turning it around, and kicking it back out the door.
It's helpful for me to know that after almost two years, you can still get the urge. It makes me feel OK about having the occasional thought myself, and reinforces the need to be prepared to have them in the future. Thanks for posting.
PS: My daughter's starting second-grade this year. It's terrific to see them make new friends, learn new things, and develop new interests. They just become more and more fun to be around. I recently started playing the card game Uno with my girl. It's incredible to watch her try to figure out strategies to beat me—and sometimes succeed.
Even difficult changes are often for the best. Nobody knows that better than us.