Thanks everyone for the suggestions but I have decided to look for mental health help only. I am currently finished with in-patient & out-patient drug programs. My severe mental health is preventing me from making sane decisions in my crazy life. My drug of choice is alcohol but of course I am a "garbage can" type of addict. My family is currently planning on kicking me out to a few minor slips so I will be back to the shelter. Which is a very dangerous & drug infested place. I'm not sure if the police are continue to track my wherabouts but I remain vigilant on that. They just want to know where this new tainted drug stuff is coming from.