It may be helpful - I know it was to me - to know that alcohol has to do something FOR us before it can do something TO us. Alcohol and drugs fixed me - until they didn't anymore. Not everyone reacts that way. The buzz frightens some people - imagine that! I understand that sense of possibility. For me, it was when socializing. I couldn't be around people without a few drinks (or certain pills) in me. Didn't even have to be hammered. I was so delusional, I thought the REAL me was the "3-4 drink (or pill) me." That other sober guy was just some scared, boring guy I really didn't care much for.