Be glad you're finding that out now, Liquid. It took me decades of insising I could control it to finally surrender - but not before I left a huge path of destruction behind me. The last time I was going to have just one, it became a 3-week long binge that I almost didn't make it out of. That's when I found SR.
Glad you are here & talking about it. You can turn it all around and have a better life, one not controlled by alcohol. Keep talking to us.