I am on the panic/anxiety train too
I am at 69 days today and while I have a clear head, when I start to thinking about all of the incredibly stupid and alcoholic things I have done and the ramifications, I am overcome with fear.
I am bi-polar, on meds, in therapy and working the steps with a sponsor, so I am not just sitting around freaking out like I was before. The only thing that is helping is trying to "stay in the moment" but it is hard.
Then I watch the news and I feel like the world is coming to an end.
I just feel crazy. And like a eff up.