I want to say thank you all for your posts. I feel exactly the same way. It seems my AH knows just the things to say to make me feel guilty and crazy...WHEN I HAVE DONE NOTHING WRONG. I didn't cause it, I cant control it, and I can't cure it (although I must say I have endlessly tried). It is very hard for me to change my obsessive thinking but that's why I only take it one day at a time.