Ryan,
Look at it this way...We all found this place, pretty much the same way...no friend told me about it, I was searching for help online and then BOOM here was this awesome site. Many of us disappear the exact same way...just as we found this place. We find the strength to stop, the connection with others, and then we're gone for a while. Sometimes life just happens and yes some relapse, some don't and some stick around. Me? I was gone for a while and I come back here as much as I can. Sometimes I feel like I have nothing positive or good, or helpful, or anything to say...but anyway, I know for me, I didn't want to be reminded of my addiction every day...but I came back after a little spell away...because I know I need this site, when I need it...and I want to help.
G2C