Originally Posted by
MissKnowitall 
I stayed supportive through out, only to have him push me away. I was furious. Not that he got help of course but that the last person to really make him feel semi human is the first one that was pushed away.
This is my problem, too, with my RA friend; the longer we stay out of touch, the more I feel like he's pushed me away, and that's hard. And hwsm - I know what you mean about needing closure, especially since you still have feelings for him. But sometimes that closure never comes; if my RA friend never returns to work (which is probably what's going to happen) and never contacts me, then our long friendship may just end here, abruptly.
So you have to try and work on yourself; depression is hard but I hope you can find someone to talk to, and that you were able to get out of bed today and get outside--it can only help you. Take care and sending you strength!