I guess this wasn't the best thing to post, because it makes us feel stupid. Well, it makes ME feel stupid. I knew my husband had a problem before marrying him but I thought it was over. WRONG. He's been clean for 4 months but as with any recovery I'm sure there will be "slips" (that's what he calls it). Most of the time, I just want to kick myself for not being smarter. Seeing there was the potential for disaster, I should have run, but I didn't. Now, I'm codependent and full of anxiety and fear. I'm getting better though. I guess this story just makes me understand it's not his fault - he knows he's an addict. It's my fault for knowing what he was and still "picking him up". Meh...