Hey, sorry about your loss. I'm not in AA myself but remember you posting that you had an interest. It seems like a sponsor would have come in real handy tonight. This is part of your process. Learning that you don't control alcohol.
I do not think the above answers are cold. This is a forum where we are guaranteed support in getting help and staying sober. Bayliss, you will continue to come back, and you know we will continue to support your recovery? Of course you do
